Why 46% of horse owners grieve in silence

This covers the practical and emotional realities of horse loss, including euthanasia. Challenging content, but essential preparation.

Nov 16, 2025

My vet and farrier sat me down and told me my horse’s navicular couldn’t be managed anymore. “It might be time to think about euthanasia,” they said.

I nodded. But the truth? I knew absolutely nothing about what that actually meant. Not the process, not the methods, not what I’d witness, not the decisions I’d need to make in advance.

I ended up choosing a different path—retired him to track living, went barefoot. That’s another story. That conversation was 5 years ago, but it exposed something I couldn’t shake: I was completely unprepared for the decision nearly every horse owner will eventually face.

That’s why I needed Anna Louise to have this conversation with Sophie Cookson King from Blue Cross Pet Loss Support, even though I knew it would be uncomfortable for us both to produce and probably to watch/listen to.

If You Need This Right Now

Blue Cross Pet Loss Support is free, confidential, and helped over 30,000 pet owners last year:

Phone: 0800 096 6606 (8:30am-8:30pm every day, including Christmas)

Email: pbssmail@bluecross.org.uk

Web chat: bluecross.org.uk/pls

While preparing for this episode, I found research that told me others needed this information too.

We’re leaving people to navigate the most traumatic decision of horse ownership completely alone

Only 1 in 8 horses die naturally. That means 88% of horse owners will have to make the decision to end their horse’s life.

Then I started reading forums. The pattern was unmistakable: people posting days after euthanasia asking “is this normal?” One woman described her mare’s body under a tarp three days later, turning to strangers online because no one had prepared her for what happens after goodbye.

Another owner wrote: “I don’t know how to process this devastating loss. I feel like I failed him.”

That phrase—”I feel like I failed him/her”—appeared over and over.

People second-guessing their method choice, their timing, whether they should have been present, whether they chose rendering over cremation to save money.

We’re leaving people to navigate the most traumatic decision of horse ownership completely alone, then carrying guilt for years about choices they made in crisis.

What Sophie Made Me Understand

Twenty-three minutes into the conversation, Sophie said something that reframed everything for me:

“Disenfranchised loss is when a loss is not recognised by society, and that can feel so alienating.”

I’ve had work give me compassionate leave, friends send gifts, colleagues who understood when I lost my dog. But Sophie described horse owners contacting the helpline saying they feel guilty, questioning whether they’re allowed to feel this devastated over “just a horse.”

Then she shared the statistic: 46% of pet owners suffer in silence after losing a pet. But with horses, it’s even more isolating because fewer people own them, fewer people understand the time investment, the daily routine disruption, the sheer complexity of the bond.

The research backs this up completely. The highest-volume search terms aren’t “how to euthanise a horse.” They’re variations of “when is it time” and “am I giving up on my horse.”

People aren’t looking for process information first. They’re desperately seeking permission.

The Part That Haunts Me

When Anna Louise asked Sophie to walk through what actually happens during euthanasia, I could hear the hesitation in both their voices. But Sophie did it—explained both methods, the fall, the post-death movements.

Here’s what landed hardest for me: Sophie explained that with dogs and cats, you can hold them in your lap through the end. But with horses, you have to step back. The vet needs clearance for the horse to fall safely.

“In the moment you most want to be closest to them,” Anna Louise reflected, “you actually have to let the professionals take over.”

Sophie was quick to emphasise: “Although it might feel dramatic or not a very nice thing for us to witness, the horse doesn’t know what’s coming... For your horse it’s completely humane, but what it doesn’t do is lessen the feelings that can be evoked by that moment for you as an owner.”

That distinction matters. The method isn’t the problem—it’s humane, it’s necessary. But we need to prepare people for the specific trauma of witnessing a half-ton animal’s final moments, not leave them to discover it in real-time.

The Cost Nobody Talks About

After recording, I went deep into the financial barriers that create impossible choices.

UK costs from 2024 forums:

Vet call and euthanasia: £195-345
Body collection and disposal: £390-700
Individual cremation with ashes returned: £220-1,000
Total: £800-2,000+ (higher for emergencies or out-of-hours)

One owner shared: “OOH vet at 2am: £193. Euthanasia by injection: £241. Fallen stock collection: £390. Individual cremation: £220. Total: £1,044. He’d already had two vet visits that day, another £225.”

The research documents owners delaying euthanasia because they can’t afford disposal, then carrying guilt for years about letting their horse suffer while they saved money. Others chose rendering over cremation for financial reasons and regret it forever.

This is the conversation we’re not having: the financial barriers that trap people between doing right by their horse and what they can actually afford in the moment.

What Can We Do

Sophie told Anna Louise: “Making these decisions prior to you feeling in that really stressed, anxious space of when the time actually comes... I think that it is not nice to think about, but a really responsible thing to do for our loved horses.”

She’s right. When I was in that consultation about navicular, I was making decisions in shock. I got lucky, we found another path. But one day I won’t have another option. And I want to be prepared.

My action plan:

Find out which method makes sense for my horse’s temperament (Sophie noted: needle-shy horses might struggle with injection, head-shy horses with free bullet)
Identify where it could safely happen
Research disposal costs and options
Start a fund if needed so cost doesn’t dictate my choices or check insurance coverage

The research shows people who plan ahead report less guilt and trauma afterward because they made decisions based on their values, not panic.

The Companion Grief

One thing Sophie mentioned that sent me down another research path: surviving horses grieve too.

She explained this is especially critical for donkeys, who can develop hyperlipemia. In this potentially fatal stress response, fat floods the bloodstream and can clot major arteries. “It is extremely important that if a bonded pair or a companion of a donkey is euthanised... that that donkey is able to see the body and spend time with the body of the deceased companion.”

Sophie said this is becoming more recognised for horses too: “If you can allow time for the companions to see, sniff, and be with the deceased animal... we need to make sure that there is companionship available for the remaining horses.”

The forums confirm this. Multiple owners described their horses standing vigil, one crying for days, another going downhill and dying within six months of losing their bonded companion.

We’re not just preparing for our own grief. We’re preparing for our other horses’ grief too.